I Began! And the Elliptical Plan

I spoke with my partner about how he made me feel and it seems this small step of empowerment helped with my motivation to start watching my diet again. I'm still not 100% perfect with my logging but I'm so much closer to 100% compliance that I've already lost 3 lbs. Mostly just water-weight I'm sure from all the salt and junk I was eating, but my back and hip feel much better.

I've also figured out a way to get myself back into my exercise habit. I'm going to suck it up and buy my own elliptical. I thought buying a treadmill for me and my partner was enough, but he's always working on homework and I don't want to make noise and run in front of him in his office where we keep the huge blasted machine. Everytime I go to the gym and don't hop in the pool I get on the elliptical. I actually enjoy it. I don't have the bouncing problem that I have when I'm actually running. I can go much longer and harder on an elliptical than on a treadmill because it's not as hard on my joints. But the problem is, I don't have an elliptical and I'm so unmotivated to go to the gym by myself. I think once I get some confidence back I will head back to the gym. Start swimming again. But first, I need to get rid of my own obstacles to exercise. I think buying and elliptical is exactly what I need. I can think of 4 times in the past week alone where I was watching videos on my laptop or looking through a magazine where I thought, man I wish I had an elliptical in the house, I could be killing calories while I'm doing this. But I'd rather stay home. I don't want to take a shower to go to the gym and get all sweaty and take another one there. I don't want look through all my clothes for a semi decent gym outfit.
So, my strategy is to get rid of those obstacles. People don't want to go to the gym with me, I bring the gym to myself until I feel better about what I'm doing. Since I like the elliptical I know it will get a lot of use.
That said, the treadmill I bought is still a good thing. My partner uses it from time to time and maybe when I get smaller I'll feel more comfortable running on it. We'll see. Elliptical first!