I've seen no weightloss. Nothing. But today I don't care that much. I just want to try again. Find something that works for me. Stop having this consume my whole life.
I tried cheat to lose. My aunt lost almost 30 lbs. I didn't lose anything. I just had headaches all the time from carb withdrawal. I had no energy. I missed eating fruit and never got the no fat thing down on high GI days.
Isn't the whole point to find something sustainable for me, long term?
School starts soon and I'm ordering a new book with my school books. It might be bullshit. It certainly sounds like it is. But nothing else works for me. I've calorie counted and been told I'm in starvation mode. I've upped my calories and thusly gained weight. I tried Jenny Craig, weightwatchers, excercising more, following the food pyramid, vegetarian, I can't even go on anymore with this crap.
So next book is the last book. After that, I'm just sticking to my "healthy" eating habits of lots of fruits and veggies, plenty of protein, limiting my refined carbs, and I'm going to do activities I enjoy, like swimming, and going for walks with my puppy. (I'm really looking forward to her getting big enough to actually complete a mile or two, she's only 12 weeks old!) After that, my body can be damned. I just dont understand. I'm smart. I'm reading labels and following directions. Either I have to go at 800 calories or something is seriously wrong. For now, I say fuck it. On with the rest of my life.
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