Checking my tracking...

I noticed that I was eating fairly normal 200 to 400 calorie meals of things I really like (chinese food, my breakfast shakes, tacos, etc) when I began losing weight at the beginning of the semester.  I was logging fairly carefully and was full invested in my workouts.  I had a few snacks a day that were 100 to 300 calories.  I averaged between 1100 and 1300 calories per day (this is taking into account exercise).  I felt really good then.
I really need to get organized and get back on track.  I think I need some distance from a few people too. :(

Interesting day

I guess I just wanted to talk about how today went. Um, I went to school and decided that I didn't really feel like being at school so I left. And I took my dog to the dog park. I've been really stressed out about school. And I've been really stressed out about my relationship with Ryan.

I guess I'm just really frustrated. I'm working on my 2 year plan and it just seems to be taking forever and the funny thing is I'm nearly done with school. Actually I'm supposed to graduate this semester. So when I graduate that part of my 2 year plan will be done . Which brings me to the other parts of my 2 year plan that I'm working on.

I I need to get my finances in order. So soon I will be doing my exit counseling for my student loans and I have a lot to do before school is done. I need to take the GRE, get at least a 3.0 GPA , and then I need to attempt to get into grad school in Milwaukee.

If everything goes as planned I will start school again next spring. Now would be a good time for Ryan to propose however he's not ready. This is a very frustrating to me. I think it is affecting my eating. Lately I've been so busy I haven't had time to work out like I would want to. I'm still trying to figure out how to balance everything after my grandpa passed away a few weeks ago.

This past week I've done really well with making it to the gym up until today and yesterday, but I'm still not doing great with my eating habits. I've been doing better than I used to I think. I've only had 1 day where I went over 2000 calories. I walk a lot and I was really blessed to get  a fit bit from my co workers for my birthday. I really invested my money into getting good workout clothes and I've gotten several pairs of Barefoot Technology shoes. I'm currently bidding on another pair on eBay. I really love the pace glove shoes. And I've been keeping up with zombies run to a degree.

So, all in all things are going pretty well it could be worse. I just wish things would go a little faster right now. I wish Ryan was ready but then I'm not ready. I really want to be at my goal weight when he proposes. I'm going to keep working towards that and hopefully before summer hits I'll be much closer to where I want to be .

Phish tour shall be announced soon and when it is I would really like it if I could go on tour and be comfortable in the clothes I wear. I think it would be really exciting is Ryan family decides that he is going to propose at that point in time. As it is, his best friend is planning to propose to his boyfriend on tour.

Anyway I'll keep you all posted on what happens next and I will put up a new video soon. Have a great day!

Odd thought...

It always seems that when people talk about someone who's "lost a lot of weight" the story always comes second hand.

What I mean by this is, I, personally, have never witnessed someone be overweight and get down to goal.  Is this because I'm from Wisconsin? Maybe it's due to my choice to seclude myself often; I work my one job and attend school making few long term relationships. 

I'm not sure. It just seems odd that the people I know that have lost weight, did it away from me.  They weren't in my sight on a daily basis.

I want to BE that person.  The person that makes goal and people, my co-workers, boyfriend, family, etc, watch it happen. 

On another note....11+ miles on Zombie Run this week and I feel pretty awesome!

To continuing towards goal!

It's the starting of a brand new year....

So, it is now Wednesday, January 2nd, 2013. There was no Zombie Apocalypse, life has continued on as normal. SO, since we know we'll probably have some time before the next end-the-world scenario comes up, I'm back to focusing on that two year goal of mine...and this is gonna be a doozy. In an attempt to finish school and move on with my life, I will be taking 18 credits this semester, along with working full-time. I'm not looking forward to this, but I am looking forward to getting done.

 Ah hell, lets break it down into the four(?) areas I did last time and what my short term goal is to finish this thing up.

School:
 I'm taking 18 credits. It will be hell. It will also structure my time and keep me out of trouble. Then I graduate in May, hopefully with a 3.0 GPA. Then I'll take the next six months to put some cash aside, take the GRE and apply to Grad School. Wish me LOTS of luck... 

Finances:
I'm done with my student loans. Can't take any more out til I get into Graduate School, so I have to pay $3,600 for tuition and then pay about $400 for books, unless I can swing it with some older additions. To do this I've had to take a loan out on my car, and I took an additional loan out that will get paid back to me at the end of January. My plan is to do payments like I did last time, and use my tax return to blow a good chunk of tuition out. I've found that with my supplementary loans helping me, I've been able to afford to go to school and pay in installments. So, we're doing ok. I'm just going to work harder to budget using MINT.com and we'll continue down this nifty little path. 

Weightloss:
 I've been holding steady. Annoyingly. Agonizingly. Disappointingly. But, between school, my finances, and my very annoying, negative boyfriend, we're making another go of this. I will continue to use myfitnesspal and have added on Zombies! Run! 5K program. I'm currently only on day two, but this feels like something I can stick to. Perhaps this was the Zombie Apocalypse I was waiting for (life changing? Yes. Could be...)Beyond this, as a kickstart to a year of meeting my goals (13 is one of my fave numbers so better be now!) I'm doing a Suero Viv cleanse. My grandmother has given me the 3 days worth of Suero Viv, and when I'm done with this 3 day fasting exercise, I'm planning to buy some books on raw food and get back on that band-wagon. My friend Becca is doing a 60 day fast using Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead as her inspiration. Same basic principal with all of these. Suero Viv is just ready made for me to use and my grandmother has done very very well losing weight on it. I'm also going back to the gym after work with my co-worker starting Wednesday. Lastly, due to the extreme strain and stress of finances and school, I won't have time to sit and eat food. I'll literally be running from class to class and then to work every day. My days off will consist of some recovery and lots of studying. But I can just imagine myself in May, getting ready for graduation, and I'm a whole new person.

 Relationships:
 This last year, I have gained some truly great friends, and my life couldn't be more satisfying in this respect. My partner and I are doing well for all intents and purposes. I finally got a "love" statement out of him, and I'm doing fairly well with keeping up on housework and making progress in other "crafty" areas of my life. So I just hope that maybe after graduation, when I'm this "new" person, that then he'll give me that circular metal think I'm so hoping for. Also, here is to a year with more Phish shows and hopefully more musical presences in my life.

 ONWARD, HO!

215.8! But what's actually making me lose?

So, the last week has been really rough on me, but for the last two weeks, I've been taking the weightloss supplement Visi.  I noticed on Visi, during the first week that it was MUCH easier to stay within my calories on myfitnesspal.  But the second week, between, school, work, and my partner being extremely difficult, eating was no longer interesting to me.
I have another stressor as well eating at me.  I'm 10 days overdue for my "little friend" to visit.  Every test has been negative. But my mom said she went to her thinnest when she was pregnant with me...so that's a bit worrisome. 

216.2 and for FUN!

Not really a weightloss post, though I' down to 216.2 the last few days! This is just for fun and something I wanted to save. Read the following questions, imagining the scenes in your mind, and write down the FIRST thing that you visualize. Do not think about the questions excessively. 1. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with? Ryan, my partner. 2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it? Tela, my dog. 3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? I pet her on the head. 4. You walk deeper into the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your dream house. Describe its size. It's large, a victorian. 5. Is your dream house open, or surrounded by a fence? I initially thought it did, because I want a fence at my current house for Tela, but truly, I didn't imagine a fence around the house. 6. You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining room table. Describe what you see on and around the table. I saw my artwork, sketchbooks, with pencils and erasers. 7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What material is the cup made of (ceramic, glass, paper, etc.)? I saw my favorite heavy blue ceramic cup, 8. What do you do with the cup? I pick it up. 9. You walk to the edge of the property, where you find yourself standing at the edge of a body of water. What type of body of water is it ? A stream. 10. How will you cross the water? At first I jump on the rocks, but then I wade in, and eventually have to swim for a short duration. Then walking back up onto shore. This has been a relational psychology test. The answers given to the questions have been shown to have a relevance to values and ideals that we hold in our personal lives. The analysis follows. 1. The person who you are walking with is the most important person in your life. Ryan probably is the most important person in my life, which can be frustrating. 2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems. I think this is odd. Tela isn't very big,but she weighs 60lbs. I think this question doesn't quite work. This should be negative. I should have picked an animal I feared, but perhaps this just means that I don't fear my problems. 3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems (passive, aggressive). Ha! I patted her on the head. Maybe this means I embrace my problems, that I like them. This would make sense considering my choice of work and my relationship with Ryan. 4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to resolve your problems. The victorian is pretty big. Strange that I have such huge ambition to fix problems and yet embrace them. Again, probably a reflection of my career choice and partner choice. 5. No fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence is more indicative of a closed personality. You'd prefer people to not drop by unannounced. No fence...not particularly surprising there. 6. If your answer did not include food, people, or flowers then you are generally unhappy. Is this true? Yes, I tend to be somewhat unhappy, but my art work doesn't make me unhappy. Perhaps it just is something I wish I did. 7. The durability of the material with which the cup is made is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship with the person from number 1. For example, Styrofoam, plastic, and paper are disposable; Styrofoam, paper, and glass (ceramics) are not durable; and metal and plastic are durable. Well I chose a ceramic mug. And often I feel that we may not be durable. However, it is a heavy mug that is very old. So perhaps it's more durable that normally percieved. 8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude toward the person in number 1. It is my favorite cup. LMAO. 9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire. It's a decent sized stream. But it's not like it's the ocean or anything. 10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life. I get completely wet....so must be pretty damn important!

Applications

It's been a bit since I've posted but I wanted to make a quick notation about apps I use on my Android.  I have the R2D2 Droid.  It's getting a bit dated but it's been a great little smart phone for me.

The first app I use everyday and it is the origin of my counter on this page.  It's called myfitnesspal.  I love the food and meal creation functions and it sets up a calorie count for you based on activity level.  It does have a few cons though.  I wish you could set a goal date on it.  I also feel that it's calorie counts for exercise are too generous.  This generosity means that according to the app you can eat more than what is necessary because you can "earn" calories from exercising.  It's more of a mental issue though.  But why make it harder? Lots of people on the site say you must "eat back your exercise" but I've read literature that says this makes weight loss harder and slower.  Calorie counting is difficult too because it's very easy to forget little "taste test bites". But I digress.  It's a handy tool in the least.

Another app I use is the countdown widgit.  Mine states as a title my starting weight to my goal weight and then I change my daily weight as I go.  This is where I keep my goal date since myfitnesspal doesn't have one.  I have 199 days left to goal.  My current title says 226-163 217.  It's a nice reminder when I open my phone to chart calories or check facebook.

I also use simple weightloss countdown.  It keeps a bar on my home screen that depicts how many pounds I have left to lose until I hit goal and how much I've currently lost.  Right now it says I've lost 9lbs and have 54 left to goal.

I have two final apps that I don't use like I'd like to, but, none-the-less they are pretty awesome. 

I downloaded an app called multi reps which runs off the 100 push ups premise.  You can do push ups, sit ups, chair bends, squats and add 4 additional exercises of your choosing.  I just use the initial four on the rare occasion I try to use it.  It has a great countdown function and tells you when to rest and also gradually increases your reps with each workout.  It also reminds you to work out with an alarm function. It was worth the $1.99 I paid for it.  I just use need to actually do it.

The last app I'm going to talk about today is p tracker.  This is for tracking your period.  Haha.  It's great because it helps give you an idea of when you might be getting bloated and tracks your emotions and other various health data.  It's colorful and pretty.  It could use some graphing functions.  I 've only been using it for 1 month so I have yet to see if it will adjust itself to my body's rhythms.  Here's hoping.

So...any cool apps you can't live without, oh non-existant readers?