I don't know what the f*** is wrong with me. I'm currently up to 229.8 pounds. This is way too close to 230 for comfort. I'm super pissed off. I don't understand why I'm having so much trouble keeping my eating under control. And I don't know where my exercise drive went. This has to stop! My goal was to get down under 200 pounds before I went to Phish this year. Time to brainstorm and get a handle on this.
1. I've been working a lot of hours
2. I've been sleeping less
3. Since I'm tired I think I'm eating more
Food issues
It is probably not coincidence that I'm up in weight and have been eating lots of salsa and chips. Between the salt and the amount I'm eating I probably have some water weight going on.
I ran out of my flavored water.
I've become bored with my shakes.
I tend to be over zealous with cheese.
I'm not loving salads lately.
I'm focusing too much on fruit and not enough on veggies.
Exercise
Being tired and working so much isn't giving me motivation to exercise.
Mentality
I'm sad that my boyfriend and I might not work out. Even if we're ok right now, my talk with a counselor and talks with friends worry me and stress me out.
I'm working a ton because I like money and need to pay my grandma back.
Over doing it at work and not sleeping enough are sabotaging my small efforts.
Lots of different foods right now.
I may have screwed up my metabolism a bit when I left for 9 days.
So, starting tomorrow I'm doing things differently. Back to semester start habits.
1700 cals. Zombies, Run! Nearly every day. Or swim. Exercise class 1 to 2 Times per Week.
I wish all this wasn't so damn hard. :(
